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Friday, September 10, 2004

Vicious cycle

I must break out of this vicious cycle.

All Fridays...I go down for breakfast...then I come back to sleep...and the worse thing is...the time I go to sleep gets earlier and earlier.

Eg. I slept at 8:45 today. Despite the fact that I slept at 00:00 last night. (Which is REALLY early by the way)

I can SEE myself getting Fat. The double chin and FATs!

HELP!!!

Thursday, September 09, 2004

Getting out of hand

My pre-mid-term break is getting pretty out of hand.

Besides for TRYING to do my econometrics tutorial 2 nights ago, and copying out the tutorial nicely for submission...

I have been doing NOTHING vaguely constructive.

Eg. Today I woke up early...and...err...What did I do!?!?

Next I went for lect and ended up sleeping or not paying attention cos' the lecturer was SO SO putting me off.

Then I came back to my room to sleep.

Had lunch with R, P and KY.

Went to office only to go to science foyer to set up the booths.

Rushed back to da bao dinner.

Went for kickboxing...which I wasn't really putting in much effort as compared to the first session.

Went back office to pick up my bag and laptop.

Came back to hall, bathed, watched tv, tried to search for eurostar prices and budget airlines...

THAT's IT!

That's it!!

I did nothing!

Didn't do any of my mountain-like readings!

And I'm already sleepy.

Should sleep early for once I think. Tmr wake up then read.

Hopefully I won't be falling asleep in lectures once again!

Grrrrrr...STOP WASTING TIME!

Nights.

FAT and lazy

Think that basically sums up my lifestyle pretty much this week!

Came back to my room to sleep after breakfast yesterday....How healthy.

Had this bizarre dream abt Me being REALLY SUPER busy organising this event...whilst R was enjoying life in my hotel suite which has this "bath cum suana cum hot spring thingy" inside the room! (which is revealed when you pull the beds apart. There's like a landscape even...it's ridiculous...

And I even dreamt that I was so caught up in things...I was 5 hours late in meeting my mum!

Luckily in real life..that didn't happen lah.

Met my mum at Chinatown...passed her the digi and I got a pair of sports shoes from her. My addidas one which has been with me for at least 2 - 3 years has sacrificed for Hockey. Both soles came off during the carnival. My mum and I had HUGE lunch at Yum Cha...Yum....I liked the Ha Gao, my mum likes the Siew Mai...But I thought the Char SIew Bao abit too sweet...Shopped abit at OG (AGAIN) then I came back sleeping all the way on the bus. Chinatown is really pretty near! Only took me about half an hr back.

Had supper last night despite having a HUGE angel-mortal dinner. R is really quite nice to chat with!

Had breakfast as usual...trying hard not to sleep now and hopefully not during the lecture and work later also...

Given my current lifestyle and eating habits (too much carbo for breakfast), I highly suspect that I WON'T be slimming down anytime soon...

SIGH

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Slacker

I've been a slacker these few days...

Didn't feel like doing much last night...so I spent my time watching Tv and going for rallies and walking ard the Hall rather aimlessly until abt 2am. Only "reward" was prob the biscuits and the cuttlefish which I managed to kop from yy's room I think...

Tues...Woke up for 2 breakfasts! One with Rei, the other with Mel. Went for a supposed tutorial at 10am..which I couldn't find...then landed up coming back.

Slept the WHOLE of my econs lect. I REALLY didn't want that to happen...but I was way too tired. Think I'm too old for all those late night stuff. I tried eating sweets...but half the tube of Mentos were gone in half an hr so I decided that wasn't the way.

Then...I had diarrhoea...in the middle of the lect...came back so exhausted I decided to heck it and just sleep...

Had great plans to watch movie with Su Mei! So I was thrown in a dilemma.

Just as I was trying to recover from my loss of water and painful stomach contractions...I was asked to explain some answers on the board for Micro...how suay can I get?

And the other guy (who got 9pts!) I was just staring and his grades...and he was called! Haha...

Still I decided that it's the first time I didn't feel so weighed down by work...so I met Su Mei still...and off we went to West Mall. Bought tics for 13 going on 30. Then off we went to the food court! We even went Swenson's for a horribly sweet chocolate malt ice-cream after the show! What an indulgence!!!

The movie was Nice! Really nice! I enjoyed laughing at the awkwardness of the actress...gushing at how cute/chio she is...and the male lead of cos! But wow...I cried...cos' something touched me.

In REAL life, we sometimes never do get a 2nd chance...and the choices we make...will lead us on different paths in life...but whatever it is, we shouldn't regret...cos' if we do not do "wrong" things...we'll never get the chance to make things right.

Hmm....

Monday, September 06, 2004

Hi Bloggie...

Finally, this week i feel like I've more chances to breathe.

Had a really "sunny" Saturday sitting under the hot hot sun "waiting" to play hockey! This is the first time I've played so much of a game I think! Played 2 halves and one full hockey game at the carnivals! But I guess I was able to cos' the numbers were really pretty miserable...still...I'm glad for the chance...REALLY glad...cos' this is probably the last time I'll play any game...at least I dun foresee myself joining any IHG...graduating from NUS will be even worse.

I didn't think I really contributed much..except for banging real hard into C...haha...but I was glad for the chance...it was nice to hear encouraging words...and to hear comments on how I should improve on court.

I think Hockey made me a much happier person!

And...I attended my first kickboxing class on Thurs night! Didn't manage to go for Lf's bday party as a result..=( and ended up with aching body and arms for 4 good days...but I guess it was worth it. As I was punching REALLY hard...I kept seeing someone's face. (dun ask me who it is) But yeah...I finally felt that I was venting all my pent up frustration...and it actually felt good! ;P

Sunday was another fine family day! =) Went out shopping at OG with my mum! =) It's always nice to go out with Mummy...didn't buy too much this time...except for 2 T Bras and a nice pair of jeans! yeah! I can't believe I was Elated that I could fit in a L instead of a XL! haha...

Came back to hall last night...tried hard to prepare for my NOC interview this morning...had a nice msn chat with ZJ...and I realised...that I must have owed something to this person in my previous life...I wanna think of it that way...so that I would feel better.

I remembered how affected I was the night before my first interview. And the same thing happened to me last night! I read something which I thought I shouldn't have...but luckily...I decided not to think too much and not let it affect me too much.

It worked!

I think my interview today was ALL RIGHT. I didn't do fantastic...but all the psychoing and smiling to myself worked...I was more confident than before. Not exactly the kind of confidence they are looking for I'm sure...but I'm glad I did better than the 1st interview! And...I met JJ there! It seemed that they DO sieve ppl out! A few didn't make it through the 1st interview...that made me feel better as well!

But guess what touched me the most?? I actually received an email from Cui Cui! Missed her so much! Wanted to sms her and ask what she bought in bugis but she actually emailed me first! =)

Friends are the best. They hang around...forever. No matter what.