What's going on???

Orchard AGAIN

I came home to sweep the floor after a nap which was after a heavy breakfast! ;P Whilst I was sweeping...I was reminded of how HY used to "an1 wei4" me when i was feeling down...she said that I was filial.

Actually I don't think i deserve that. There's alot more which I can and I SHOULD be doing to help my mum out...But the only thing i do is to sweep the floor once a week. But then again...at least i do that right??? So i felt abit better...

Met up with Cui in the afternoon...it's the BEST to meet up with close friends!!! Oo...and guess who I bummed into in bishan!?!? My eyes actually met Kenny's!!! (For those who dunno, Kenny is my crush who was a fellow waiter at Edo Sushi Bar) I was so surprised!!! I wonder what made me look at him cos' I hardly look at people while walking but I met his eyes...I was pretty sure...but I looked away quickly too cos...I dunno...I felt scared somehow.

There's a girl beside him (obviously) but I didn't even take a look at her...dunno if it's the same girl or not. But actually that doesn't matter to me. I was just shocked that I actually saw him.

I wasn't exactly at my best today. Think my eyes looked too tired...but at least i had my contacts on...haha.

Cui and I went to comb orchard again! out of "fun" i tired on this black dress which i have no intention of buying...It turned out to be rather fitting and pretty! Best thing is that it's a reasonable price! I like that dress! But...to spend $51 on it...and having no occasion to wear it..plus i'll probably feel uncomfortable in it cos' it's sleeveless...so...i didn't get it...but i am thinking abt it still...no doubt.

Sure hope I'll decide really soon.

We looked at clothes and clothes and clothes...wow...so much variety and colours! But they no longer appeal that much cos' I don't think I can carry alot of them off. Am Too fat. But it was nice to know that I'm not the only one who had "silly" thoughts of pills and slimming centres. A lot of other girls do!!! It's this whole madness about "slim" and "skinny" going on in Singapore...all the advertising...the media...it's hard not to feel "pressurized" to be like all the rest too!!! But I'm glad that I've friends to tell me how their friends fall sick because of Cambridge Diet, and how they have wasted money going to slimming centres(cos could only afford a few hundreds to go to a not so famous slimming centre)...But both of us have reached a conclusion...

WE HAVE TO BE RICH! Facial works...Expensive facial products and make up works...Clothing with superb cutting and material works...all these need money. And of cos, slimming centre works if you have all that money to burn (in thousands)!

Either that...or you gotta have a HELL LOT of DETERMINATION. Endless exercise, staying off junk, embracing the vege and fruits.

Sigh...i'm sad to say I have neither...so I guess i'll have to stay ugly for some time...;P

Ohh....another revelation! Beauty is not all about looks and body. It's also about the mind! I've decided that I was pretty on my birthday party! Cuiling too!!! Exceptionally good looking I mean! And even though I was really quite fat when I was in China...but I felt that I "looked good" too! So...it must have been the fact that I was happy! Truly happy...The happiness must have translated to beauty of some sort!

So...hopefully I'll be happy forever so that i'll be pretty forever!! Hahaha...

What's going on???

Yeah...like I expected...she was fast asleep...

Why is it that nothing ever goes right for me lately? Or is it that my premonitions are always very accurate? I seem to always think of the "worse" scenerios...

But well...at least I woke up to do my laundry...and I da baoed a HUGE pack of "dong fen"...heh...it's been a long time since i ate dong fen...

Very very full now....;P

What's going on???

Heaven loves to make sport of us...

I was trying to pack last night...thought I should do my laundry here since it's free...so I removed my quilt cover, put it into the washing machine...and packed my quilt.

Thought it was going to be like any other day, pretty warm and no blanket.

Rei came back after midnight. She came over to my room to watch a movie at about 1:30am...we watched till about 4, I ate a whole bar of chocolate before I drank the Hooch that she bought...didn't want to get "drunk"...so thought it'll be better to have some food in my stomach.

After the alcohol...I was RED...and feeling rather light-headed...abit "hot"...but still...the weather outside was cooling...TOO cooling perhaps...I wished I had my comforter...My fan was usually on full blast...last night it was on minimum speed...yet I felt cold...

Alarm rang at 7:45...was supposed to meet Siyi at 8:30...got a cramp when I woke up to switch off the alarm...I was SO cold...and I've nothing to cover myself with! I've packed my towel even...and the other one is also in the dryer.

I felt rather miserable...so decided to sleep abit more and wait for Siyi to call.

She WAS supposed to call...really...but it's like 8:45 now...so is she waiting for me at AS7? Or is she still asleep?

I'm not sure...that's y I'm staying put in my room. It's raining outside...and she doesn't pick up my calls...

Why?

No battery?

On silent mode?

I dunno....

???

Meteor Dreams

I spent the whole of yesterday watching Meteor Gardens 2. Think I started from about 1pm...after my lunch, had a dinner break at 6pm, then continued with the VCDs all the way till 4am!!! Of cos' I didn't watch EVERY single episode cos' it was 31 episodes! I basically skipped all that involved Dao Ming Si and Ye Sha. Couldn't stand it at all...Although it was a very "patchy" show...cos' I skipped parts here and there...but I was still very touched...the show is not too bad at all...though it can be rather slow at times.

I particularly loved one song...something about "letting go"...and i TRULY felt the sensation of "sourness" flooding my heart...it was not exactly heart wrenching...but more like "xin1 suan1"...definitely a painful and unpleasant feeling...

Nearly "drop-dead" at 4:30am cos i was REALLY tired...had no choice but to do this "marathon" cos' i had to return the VCDs the next morning...I had the OTO eye massager on my head and I fell asleep...just like that! so...when I woke up the next morning at 7:30...it was still on my head...bwahaha...i'm amazed...

Had breakfast, then watched Spirit, stallion of the Cirammon. As usual...despite that it was a cartoon on horses, I cried, for I was so touched by the love between the red indian and his horses...love is about sincerity, and letting go...

If you truly love something, you must learn to let it be free, to let it find it's own happiness...

I went back to bed with a rather heavy heart...I think I yearn for love...having being away from that kind of intense emotions for so long...yes...I long for it.

But all seems bleak...and...well...Sigh...I've more or less forgotten what is it that I was really feeling and that I wish to convey...

Like Mel, I think it'll take me a long time to fall in love. Having crushes and liking someone is different. Zai zai said something, "you fall in love when you realise that the more you find out about one person/a thing, the more you find yourself NOT being able to detach from it."

How true...I sure hope all that are in love now will learn to appreciate the joy love brings and enjoy the process. The laughter, the tears, the joy, the pain...

IKEA

After my nap...Rei, Xinye and I went out to IKEA. I had nothing in mind to buy...but I just thought that there's no harm in going out! We ate at the ikea restaurant. Xinye and I shared a portion of Swedish meatballs (It's GOOD!) and I bought a Daim cake (Which was FABULOUS cos' the caramel and choc is so good!) and xinye got a cheesecake! The deserts over there is actually rather "value-for-money"!!! It was rather crowded there today despite it being a weekday...I guess it's the sale that drew the crowd...but I myself couldn't resist the temptation and bought a King size quilt cover for only $19 when it was priced at $89 originally!!! Well, I was rather bothered by the fact that it's not the right size...(my quilt is queen size) but I thought...what the heck lah..haha...it's just more cloth! So....heh heh...another hole in the pocket! My horoscope is pretty accurate! It says that I'll be spending ALOT this weeks...and it's coming true!!! Sigh...everytime I go out i'll spend more than $10...this is NO good...

Met up with Stef right after my paper on Weds...felt SUPER tired actually but just wanted to go out! We practically "combed" the whole of orchard...had a great lunch at Sakae Sushi, ate Macs ice-cream, drank coffee at coffee bean...wow...this is life! And we've talked about to much! Life, love, family, obligations and money....sigh....so many harsh realities of life that we have to face...but I'm not feeling the crunch yet cos' I'm basically choosing NOT to face it yet...though I know it's not right...cos' it's only a matter of time...but I can't really help it. I'm really an inborn escapist.

Came back from IKEA. TRIED my best to pack...sigh...I really did manage to accumulate quite alot of things! After dinner MORE packing...den a whole bunch of KR people went out to buy some snacks and drinks for our "party" at the lounge later...But somehow...I didn't know why...I felt very anti-social so I just kept to myself and my phone...with Rei on the other side of it...smsing me...

Sigh...wat's wrong with me? Am I tired?? They were in the lounge since about midnight. It's now 1:33 in the morning...Rei came back not too long ago and just bathed...i dun feel like joining the crowd anymore...some of them might be "semi-drunk" by now...(if they have enough alcohol) Hmm...

????? I no longer understand myself...I've got work to do actually...for Urban Escape...but well...haha...am "escaping" from that too!

Tmr tmr tmr...hope it never comes.

*BIG grin*

Hmm...forgot to mention something quite "funny" for my paper on Mon. Halfway through the paper I felt quite hungry...lucky it was open book so I took out the box of raisins and started to pop them into my mouth...

I really didn't know whether is it "legal" to eat in examinations hall or not so I tried my very best to be REALLY discrete already! But there was an invigilator standing right behind me! I dunno if he saw it...but I guess it he knew he'll probably thought I was weird...but well...

I finally finished my exams!!!! Finished finished!! (ehh...just realised that there's more than one meaning to it) but well...Guess it was OK...but there were alot more which I could have wrote! But somehow they just kept "slipping" my mind! And yeah...guess i'm not all the great in writing essays anymore! No organization, no cohesiveness....no nothing....Sigh...guess it's the end of my A...but i think i'll at least get a B for the module...

ORCHARD here I come! heeee....see ya folks!!!

Yeah yeah!!!

Hmm...didn't know what I was thinking about. Started to study at about 4pm, decided that time was passing by too slowly so started to watch tv...

nothing really interesting but i just kept watching. Dinner was followed by a walk to 7-11. They still dun sell my chendol softee, ended up buying a mango pudding.

Came back for more tv...didn't feel at all satisfied...bathed...now...trying to study again!

Think I went to the toilet too much today...so was exceptionally hungry, esp. for sweet stuff.

Nothing left to do...STUDY STUDY.

yeah yeah!!!

One more paper down! Sure didn't think i'll get this far!
I think I should be a "Professional question spotter"! Almost all the parts of the GEM Taming Chaos which I've doubts came out in the exams!!!

Some I tried to understand, others I tried to ask around...some I forgot to ask...Damn! If only I've started to study earlier earlier...then at least I could have asked my lecturer! But then again...he'll probably thought I peeked at the paper and changed it or something...heh heh...

So moral of the story is...IT PAYS TO STUDY! heh heh heh...I'm quite proud of myself, not that I know the answers...but at least I've THOUGHT of the questions and was trying my best to make "intelligent" guesses and not tikam tikam...heh heh...

I'm getting too high for my own good man...My last paper is on Weds morning...my SS module, employee management in Singapore. There's A LOT of readings to do...but I actually do wanna do well for this module...cos' It's my only hope for an A now...

Okie...better get down to getting my A! heee....so long folks! Will be back pretty soon! ;P

Silly girl

Wow...sure hope that's true...haha

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Silly girl

Just realised what a silly girl I've been, always whining about the most trival things.

Ever since 2002! haha...it's been 2 yrs and nothing much has changed about me. Hmm...I wonder if that's good or bad?

A short trip home was supposed to help me rejunvenate. Considering the amt i've slept and watched tv...hmm..bwahaha...sure hope it helped!

Thought my paper tmr is at 5pm...just realised that it's actually 1pm.

Good for my Wed paper but not too good for tmr...

STUDY. I should FINALLY get down to it after an extended break! half a day turned out to be 3 days! I must be the only one who can be like that. It's like I've lost all momentum and my exam has ended!

haha...i'll try to spare you guys of all the whining AFTER my papers. I'll really try.