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Saturday, January 15, 2005

Long time no...

I must say that this week has been a week of mixed feelings I guess.

More or less settled back into my life back in Singapore. Kind of gotten used to waking up at 6am...leaving home at 7...reaching workplace by 9...leaving at 640pm, reaching home at 830pm...eat watch tv sleep.

And it goes on.

Didn't make it back to KR as early as planned. It as a minor mites issue. As usual I over-reacted. But things went back to normal as quickly as the "storm" came. I am amazed...by the extent of how well my friends can understand me. R knew that i wld b hurt and crying. my gosh...am i that predictable? bwahaha...but..well...i guess it's just me...to always be so oversensitive and yeah.

Speaking about work, this had been a great week for me! hee...cos' the entire company is now busy with either the corp planning and shifting (company shifting site), so I was pretty much left alone. Completed all my translation work by thurs...so...was basically msn-ing away when no one was around to supervise me! heee...but wow..was trying REALLY hard not to sleep during the internal corp plan meeting...next week's agenda is like meeting after meeting...WITH the directors...i think i better get more rest!

KR.
Went back on Thurs. I was SO SO happy to be back there...to feel like i've a "life" and am part of all the activities going on. Went ard to SRC with the intention to support but missed all the matches. haha...came back to hall, watched abit of tv in R's rm, then off to kitchen we went to help prepare for supper. Supper was GREAT. SUPERB. well...minus the fact that I've once again put on ANOTHER KG cos' of that...I managed to sleep in my rm somemore! cos'...well...it was unoccupied then! Felt really nostalgic looking at my surroundings...esp when that was the last time I'ld probably ever sleep there...Had many dreams that night. But mostly of HIM. I wonder why?

Fri was the only day when I had the luxury of chatting the entire day away. Managed to chat with him for abt an hr. Chatting actually felt very "natural" and "normal". That made me happy once again. Perhaps we could really be friends. perhaps. Had lunch with N! Thanks for the nice beef claypot and soursop juice! Afternoon the NCS ppl had a very interesting conversation on msn! With the ppl already IN shanghai...and those over here. I am actually kind of lookin forward to the life I'ld be leading soon! Yes...i'm giving up KR, my friends...it's a trade off i guess. But my hse mates...one SILLY boy who's ALREADY badmouthing me!!! Plus a nice da jie, a quiet boy, a nice to bully boy and...a not so "xiao" de "xiao di"...think it might be potentially very fun! Sigh...mixed feelings.

Stayed at home this lovely saturday. Ordered pizza hut's hawaiian supreme with the free sides for lunch. My gosh...pizza hut improved!!! The pizza had more ingredients, the salsa sauce was shiok...and the wings...simply delicious! hahaha...

Actually I'm not sure if i'm feeling slightly lonely here. What a stark constrast this week as compared to the last. No one asked me out...and...hmm...wanted to go JB to shop and cut hair...but seems like no one's free!

Wonder what the next week holds...but the time I have left in Singapore is slowly running out. And yeah...slowly but surely I'm reaching my "FAT point". Yes, I've hit 60kg once again...this time round...with all the fats depositing on my tummy...it is really quite gross. But I think I need to be significantly grossed out before I really take action rather than "simply talk".

Hope this is enough.

Sunday, January 09, 2005

FAT TIRED FAT TIRED

Yeah...that's what I've been feeling most of the time lately.

i AM fat.

quite Ugly.

and SUPER SUPER tired.

Had a nice dinner with SH on Thurs at Pastamania. I still think their pastas are nicer than their pizzas.

Fri I went to SGH to visit my Pa. I repeat. I do not like the hospital. His blood bottle...the fact that he's on morphine...and that after a while his lips will turn white cos' of thirst...

I think the nurses think that he's a nuisances cos' he kept asking for water and urinal. But...

I dunno what exactly i'm saying...but heart pain.

Then it was off to Hefen's hse for her bday.

Chocs, cakes and CHIPS. OMG. I ate SO much at like 1am. It's no wonder I AM fat. Put on 1kg because of that.

Slept at nearly 3am...woke up to go for the workshop at York. Wow...I was like almost half an hr late but I was cool and nothing happened cos' they were just hanging ard!

I was afraid it'll be some noisy affair with hundreds of ppl chanting slogans.

So it's totally the opposite of what I've expected. 4 round tables of at most 4 ppl each. A file, a presenter...and lots of thinking plus writing.

We had morning tea, then lunch, then afternoon tea. I drank alot of water and ate sweets in an attempt to keep awake...

Finally it was over. It was Bearable, beneficial in a sense that it brought some insights and methods of changing attitudes and all...but it was afterall...a SATURDAY!

Anyhows, went to Zouk later to attend Sun Yanzi's mini concert! Am so happy to see her so "close"...but I only managed to hear 2 songs cos' I was so late! Then it was dinner at Great World...ate a nice time chatting with M and her nice and smiley friend Judy. Trip home was bad cos' i was SO sleepy I couldn't stand still.

Mite status.
I sure hope they're all dead. After one night of "scalding" myself with hot hot towel plus dettolling and poisoning.

Yeah...will be shifting back to Hall on Mon! Hopefully...then the dieting will commence!

Jia you!

Good night!