Barber!!!

I was barber for the night!! Bwahaha...my brother suddenly came to me and asked if I wanna be a barber.

First thought that flashed across my mind:"Is there some course which my brother is going to recommend to me?"

Then suddenly he flashed this shaver and asked me to cut his hair!

Bwahaha...it was one exciting event. Though i broke out in sweat but it was fun trying to help shave off his hair whilst trying to make sure that he doesn't get cut or look terrible...

Well...of cos' as it turns out...there's quite alot of "holes" everywhere..but mostly at the back lah...and my brother...who can't really see the back of his head...actually thought that he looked quite good!!!

Bwahahahahaha........i'm happy for him man! ;P

So...who next? Who needs a free hair cut?

What a weird day

I was woken up by a tight slap on my foot at 6:40. Ouch. Both my feet and head hurts. It sucks to have to wake up so early. And to be going somewhere which I dread to go.

The job orientation. I regret it once I woke up. What made me think that i'll gain something out of it? I so won't be a sales person no matter what. But still, I had to go, due to a promise to a new friend.

Reached Chinatown on time, waited at the office and I bitched a hell lot about the nature of the job, how I am biased against it and how I'm bent on NOT doing it and how I'm gonna leave halfway. Wow...what am I doing there man?

Anyways, we were paired with 2 girls, one called Yvonne and another Eileen, both younger than us, namely 17 and 19. They are very bubbly and friendly...and they went on and on just chatting, telling us about the job and blah. One interesting fact, the 19 yr old has a baby 3 mths old! Super fat but adorable! =) I wanted to ask more about their personal lives, but guess I shouldn't b nosy so we just sat and listened or else chat more amongst ourselves.

After rotting ard at Macs for a while, we set off to Hougang. They were supposed to sell their stuff there. Reached at 11, waited for the girls to eat their lunch, then finally they started to go around, table by table, selling this bath set for $5, supposedly for charity. Well, there's a license and all...but they said they were volunteers...hmm...aren't volunteers not supposed to get money?
Confused???

Anyways, finally plucked up enough courage to tell them that I'm going to leave soon and that I am so NOT interested in the job. I mean, I respect it and all but it's not what I want to do. I realised that I'm really a person who APPEARS to be confident but in actual fact...i'm NOT. Was supposed to promote and sell to our trainers but even so, I was stammering so badly I didn't know what I was saying?!!? Can't help but admire their guts. Dun think I wanna face so much rejection in one day.

After we part our ways, (our trainers let us off early and went off to meet their targets!) XY n I went to walk ard Hougang Mall. I finally came home and after sitting around for a while, fled out to go Tampines for e UE meeting. I was so engrossed in this novel...I didn't really think...and got on the train to Boon Lay! I mean...that's usually the train that I take! was happily reading and thinking that I'm actually gonna be on time...until I realised that it's BUGIS!!! OHG..I was supposed to be at TAMPINES!

No choice but to skip the meeting...I mean, what will sponsors think if we're like always late? But felt to stupid gg home immediately so decided to take a walk at Tampines Mall. Walked and walked...found the Vcds that I wanted to get for my Mum. Paid a bomb for the originals...ate Macs ice-cream...and home I went again! I hung around cos' I thought I might be needed at the meeting. I mean, it seemed like a really lame and lousy excuse to take the wrong train!

On my way home, suddenly received a sms abt results. I almost cleaned forgot about it! Logged on...and...SURPRISE! =)

It's the best results so far!!! No Cs! It's a A+, A-, B, B and B-!!! It's nothing to boast off really, but i'm happy! Though my macro did get B-...no chance of a honours already...really...i'm not cut out for econs I think. Sometimes I wonder what my results would be if I had chosen another major. But well, since my decision can't be changed and time can't be retracted. I just gotta accept my fate.

Just pretty upset that I won't be able to go Shanghai for intern...but well, that'll have to wait then I'll see how lah...

Lalala...a weird but overall ok day!

Looking forward to the rest of the week! Meeting up with friends, shopping...EATING...and CRUISING!!!!!!!!!! =)

Job Search

Woke up and dressed nicely to go Cantonment Road for this interview which I've No idea what position it was for. I filled in the form, found this other girl sitting at this corner, thought she looked quite friendly, so decided to talk to her and asked exactly what job we're interviewing for so it won't be so embarrassing later.

Turned out that it's some promoting thing. Like the latest Anderson Ice-cream stunt about how a buying a card will entitle customers some discounts and a portion of the proceeds will go to charity blah...to think that Karwee and Kailin were complaining about it!

The interview went ok. It seems that they are willing to take in just about anybody cos' training will be provided. The manager is REALLY quite cute. All right, that's besides the point. Cos' well...pay is purely commission-based. No basic, that's a deterring factor. But anyhow, both my new-found friend xinyi and I decided to attend the on-job training tmr. (It appears that she's also from NUS, science and one yr younger! We hit it off so well they thought we were good friends! ;P)

I was telling her about my feelings with regards to the job. I really hate those people trying to promote and sell things to me when I walk on Orchard Road, now that I might become one of them really puts me off...

Anyhow, we walked on to People's Park Complex. I decided that well, since I'm there, might as well accompany her for the next interview. But cos' it was lunch time, we were told to come back half an hr later.

In order to kill time we went to the Macs at Chinatown. And we saw...JACLYN TAY! All right, not that I'm a big fan of hers but it's always exciting to see a celebrity outside...esp...In MACS at CHINATOWN!?!?

So...I summonned enough courage to ask for her autograph finally! Can't let this chance slip by. She was pretty nice. Though she was in e middle of a SMS, she stopped to sign in my organiser. I commented that her voice sounded exactly like it was on TV (what a STUPID comment) but well...it was fun! AND...even funnier to see her eat fries, fillet-o-fish and drink milo!!!!!!!!!!! These people actually do eat!!! Fast-food at that!! But...she's still so freaking skinny!!!

Anyways, this uncle sat beside us and told us how paisei he was to face Jaclyn, told us that his daughter studied Chem and that we should just find a job at Macs...it was interesting chatting with him.

I like my new friend cos' she made me really happy today! First, she said I looked like a dancer! A ballet dancer somemore! I was SO touched!!! My dream is to be a dancer! But I guess my pink skirt might have played a part.

Then she said...I didn't look fat!! OHMYGOSH...I was up on cloud nine already man. Hahaha...

By the ways, the second job turned out very similar to the first. Sales, pay 20% of proceeds...pay supposedly lowest $40 and ave ppl earn $60 to $80...though I've doubts...but well, I preferred this one somehow cos' I dun think their events are as prestigious as the other one...but at least he said work CAN be rather flexible though we're expected to work 8:30 till 6:30 from Mon to Sats...and we'll be given one day orientation, just to follow a leader and observe then given the choice to decide. The other one is on-the-job training...

I really don't know man. I spent the rest of my time walking ard in Hougang and Heartland Malls...thinking if I want such a job.

Sigh...why am I reduced to such a pathetic state!?!?

About my love life

Watching Winter Sonata IS suicidal.

I felt So sad when Jun Xiang was throwing the coin, the camera and the necklace into the sea.

To throw away the memories like that...it must have been REALLY REALLY painful.

So somehow, after I finished episode 19, I turned my back and started to sob uncontrollably.

It's been so long, since I last cried myself to sleep like that. I felt like my whole body and soul was being twisted and wrenched in pain. I guess I was crying for the characters in the show. All of them. Even Xiang He and Cai Lin. Though they are not lovable characters but they have no fault. No fault in loving another. They eventually couldn't bear to see the lovestruck lead characters be seperated. It's just too painful. I cried for seperation.

Then I cried for myself. It's been so long since I last felt so lonely.

I love to cry I think. At movies, I recalled hugging HY's arms and sobbing at nobody's business as I watched Tarzan. I'm so glad I was once so loved by a friend, a senior. Later I had YH's shoulders to cry on. But now, I only have my sweater to hug. Actually no, Rei was extremely nice cos' she let me hold on to her whilst we watched Koma. cos' i might be scared.

I'm loved somehow. But I still felt lonely. It must be because of all the sad love novels and this bout of sad dramas. Or the fact that all my friends are working except for me. How sad.

Nothing to turn to anymore. Nothing to hold on to. I did try to date. Really. I recalled watching a movie with Butcher. I even made him smuggle a packet of Lays and my fav milk tea into the cinema. It was actually quite hilarious when he fished everything out of his bag, and he complained about how difficult it was to stuff it all in...

Yet, I didn't feel anything. I couldn't hear my heart beating.

If the love I seek only happens in drama. I hope I no longer sought for love. No...I don't want to. No.

About how I look

I didn't mention this but I met up with an old friend a few days back.

It was via fate that I was introduced to this 2 convent sec 4 girls(Cloth badge too! But blue in colour...so not sure which school?) But well, they must have thought that I was a "Shen" or something cos' apparently my friend has been telling them all about my 10 A1s which I got for O levels.

It's pretty embarrassing cos' it has been 5 years already and it's really nothing much to boast off. Cos' it's past glory. I'm stinking worthless now in the academic arena. In any case, I was in a white skirt and black top cos' I was gg for a job interview. The girls actually commented that I was pretty! I so wanted to believe that but well...

At my tuition stint earlier in the week. The innocent girl was actually studying me and she asked how come I've double chin, without even having to TRY and squeeze it out? She was trying hard to squeeze hers...I should be really amused I guess...but well...her innocence kind of hurts.

By the way, I hate feeling like all my clothes are too tight.

It's one month wasted. But I've still got 2 months to go!

Jia you! 53 can't be that far off!

I hope!

Vampires, Exams and Kent Ridge Hall

It's been so long since I've had such a wild dream...

I recall alot of steps. I returned to Hall from somewhere, saw walking dead people (aka vampires), can't really make it whether they were oriental vampires or Western ones...I just knew that I was scared of them. I hurriedly climbed the steps to some attic-like place, holding my breath hoping that they won't notice me. The stairway was blocked with a box, it seems that others had escaped upwards and decided that these people won't be able to proceed cos' of the obstruction.

Reached the 2nd storey...saw a group of people there. It was supposedly the exams period cos' we were SUPPOSED to be studying but we were too afraid of the vampires. We suddenly saw shadows outside the window. I panicked. Those people reached in and grabbed 2 of us! I panicked cos' I was the only one left in the room, but I suddenly remembered that I've got my handphone on me! I dialled 999, told the police that we were held captive at Kent Ridge Hall then hurriedly hung up and acted like nothing happened.

It was then I realised that those people are not our enemies but our rescuers! There were LOTS of people on the platform. Suddenly we were like at least on 20th storey...not on 2nd. It was really high up...and the people were busy trying to inflate the air-mattresses? It was very windy...I din know where but I walked to the edge...closed my eyes and stretched out my hands...I was swaying to and fro, I was going to fall. Then suddenly, someone hugged me from behind to hold me in place. Told me that I must be mad to be standing there cos' I might just fall to my death.

The mattresses was ready...We all took turns to jump down...it seemed quite fun. But when I got down there...I looked around frantically for my phone...then I remembered...I put it in my pocket before I jumped! So it must be on the mattress!

I crawled back onto the mattress. Saw lots of Nokias but didn't find mine...A few girls jumped down...I asked them to help collect the handphones that dropped out of everyone's pockets. The mattress was HUGE. As they crawled towards me...they started to slide/throw the handphones forward. A few phones survived but some got smashed upon the impact...

Then I woke up.

What a dream.

But I guess...it showed how insecure I must be feeling.