Bitch

Haha...I've no idea why, but I'm actually quite proud of myself!

Firstly, the event "pulled off" somehow, though reluctantly maybe. But well, it went through, the audience sat through it and tried to listen to the best of their ability. Haha...it must have been the shortest event KRX has put up cos' after all the delaying, it barely lasted an hour! But I must admit that I mustn't have been too proud of it, cos' after being "forced" to give a speech after the play, (Nobody thought it was over maybe and refused to shift??) I didn't ask for any comments from friends...and I get all defensive when people talk to me about it. I'll basically just shove it aside and refuse to indulge anymore in it! haha...

Then I came back, with the high ambitions to write an essay, thinking that I won't be needing sleep...but well well...after reading through everything and the question once more, I'm not so sure.

True, it's easy for ANY essay will get me the extra points but I wasn't willing to compromise on the quality...or was it that I was afraid I might not accomplish my task? Still, I gave up and slept instead...

NEXT. came the exciting part! I made a friend attend this song event with me on Sat cos' it turned out that I was e only stupid one who actually BOUGHT e ticket in my hall...so now STUPIDLY i'll have to go on my own. And well well...this friend of mine decided that since he's in the group. Won't make sense if he has to pay to go.

Fine, I accept that. So he volunteered his services, and during breakfast I was told that he'll have to be there early. Reasonable. Then he said he might be in charge of sounds...so...doesn't it just means i'll be there alone? WOW. So of cos' i just said...."it's ok with me" ---hidden meaning "so get off my ass NOW!" and well, being the good actress that I am, the message came across quite blatantly and apparently made him quite upset.
But I didn't care! In fact, I'm quite proud of myself!

I'm tired of being the nice girl who accomodates everyone! Why can't i throw my temper and weight around at times? I don't have to always think of others right? About what they think of me...how we work....

Why bother??

I wanna live my life...the way I am.

Once i find out...who and what I am.